Santa Raiva.

"...Fuck it all and no regrets,
I hit the lights on these dark sets.
I need a voice to let myself
To let myself go free.
Fuck it all and fuckin' no regrets,
I hit the lights on these dark sets.
Let down your noose, I'll hang myself.
Saint Anger 'round my neck

I feel my world shake
Like an earthquake
Hard to see clear
Is it me? Is it fear?

And I want my anger to be healthy
And I want my anger just for me
And I need my anger not to control
Yeah, and I want my anger to be me..."

Metallica-St. Anger

Amén.

Hm.

Sta fodi.

Stupid feeling.

Of course,it´s stupid.I even don´t know how can I feel it after all that shit.It´s a mix of feelings running in my head that makes this contradiction live.Why do I feel the butterflies in my stomach?And after that I only feel anger flowing in my body?Then my fists are flying against the wall and I don´t feel any kind of pain when it collides.I just feel worst when it happens.
My head is full of questions and I have a strong desire to ask it to you,but I just don´t know how.After what I discover I don´t know what was true or what wasn´t,because I though that I knew you like anybody does.It seems easy,after all,it is just a couple o questions...but it´s not that easy when I´m living in this contradiction.I want to look you straight in the eyes but I don´t want to see you.I want to live that all over again but I want to forget what we had.I want to move on but I´m stucked on what we´ve dreamed about.
I just don´t know what to think.

"...Did you ever think I get lonely?
Did you ever think that I needed love?
Did you ever think, stop thinking
You're the only one that I'm thinking of

You'll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too
Things will be better when I'm dead and gone
Don't try to understand, knowing you, I'm probably wrong
But oh, how I lived my life for you,
Still you'd turn away..."

70´s.

"Is he live or dead?"

Contradiction.

I hate to say that I still love you and that I miss you.

Náh.

I´m really pissed off.

"Did you really give it all for us?"

Não te deixei,não desisti de ti,"como toda a gente faz".Não fui eu que me cansei,não me fui embora e não foste tu que ficaste no chão.
Nunca foi preciso pedires-me a mão,eu dei-ta sempre que precisaste.Talvez até tenha sido isso que foi o erro,o medo que estivesses mal e a ansiedade de te querer ver feliz,comigo.
Hipoteticamente falando,nunca te tive na mão,foi sempre ao contrário.Afinal os resultados estão à mostra, porque, com a mudança de clima parece que o calor que te abrigava no inverno rigoroso deixou de ser tão agradável,daí procurares algo mais fresco e,provavelmente,não tão acolhedor porque nesta estação do ano quer-se é estar ao fresco e sem preocupações.
Realmente,as probabilidades são sempre enormes e daí o resultado ser tão inesperado.